Hi guys. I'm ashlafiee, and I'm a person. Just like anyone else, just like you.
I live a normal life, where any moment there can be anything. Anything could change with a blink of an eye or the snap of one's fingers. My future hangs precariously by its thin, thin thread on the edge of the thing we call fate. Scary things do happen, and I do have bad days. Just like you.
So earlier this week, an Ugly Occurrence did, well, occur. And I'm not talking about a pimple that showed up or a noisy cousin that decided to camp out at yours over the next month. I'm talking about news. News a little something along the lines of "the dog's gotta go" or "she may not make it". Something you'd never expect or want to hear.
I was told that I was on the verge of being removed from a position I'd believed I was fit for.
On paper or in this case, on blog, it doesn't look as scary as it really seems. I probably sound like I'm being that pesky whiner from school who bawled because she didn't make it to the cheer team. But when it comes to terms of leadership positions, and you've gotten so involved that it means so much, it's really a huge blow.
I kid you not, my heart dropped when I was approached and the news was delivered. I didn't and I don't want to lose this. I was so afraid, and I still am.
Ugly Occurrences are really scary.
But they can become Life Changers if you really think about them. Since that Wednesday afternoon, I've really got myself thinking about how I can prove myself. I realise that I have changed a lot as a person since I was selected for this position, and not necessarily in a role-model, responsible way. I have changed for the worse.
And I'm glad this Life Changer has shocked me out of this trance. I'm glad that this Ugly Occurrence has happened and it's shaken me awake. I'm glad that I'm well on my way to going back to the girl I was, and the girl I want to be.
You see, Ugly Occurrences are so, so terrifying at first. You'll lie awake at night like I have been, just thinking about it and being so afraid of it. They'll shock you out of your skin, they'll take away your appetite and all the happiness anyone or anything else may have brought to you. But it gets better after a little time and a little reflection. It'll become your Life Changer, and hopefully it leads you back onto the path where you need to be.
Whoever and wherever you are: If you should be needing a Life Changer, I hope it comes for you soon. I hope you manage it right, and I hope it doesn't treat you too harshly.
Don't be afraid, be strong. It'll blow over, and it'll soon guide you home.
thank you.
xx
I live a normal life, where any moment there can be anything. Anything could change with a blink of an eye or the snap of one's fingers. My future hangs precariously by its thin, thin thread on the edge of the thing we call fate. Scary things do happen, and I do have bad days. Just like you.
So earlier this week, an Ugly Occurrence did, well, occur. And I'm not talking about a pimple that showed up or a noisy cousin that decided to camp out at yours over the next month. I'm talking about news. News a little something along the lines of "the dog's gotta go" or "she may not make it". Something you'd never expect or want to hear.
I was told that I was on the verge of being removed from a position I'd believed I was fit for.
On paper or in this case, on blog, it doesn't look as scary as it really seems. I probably sound like I'm being that pesky whiner from school who bawled because she didn't make it to the cheer team. But when it comes to terms of leadership positions, and you've gotten so involved that it means so much, it's really a huge blow.
I kid you not, my heart dropped when I was approached and the news was delivered. I didn't and I don't want to lose this. I was so afraid, and I still am.
Ugly Occurrences are really scary.
But they can become Life Changers if you really think about them. Since that Wednesday afternoon, I've really got myself thinking about how I can prove myself. I realise that I have changed a lot as a person since I was selected for this position, and not necessarily in a role-model, responsible way. I have changed for the worse.
And I'm glad this Life Changer has shocked me out of this trance. I'm glad that this Ugly Occurrence has happened and it's shaken me awake. I'm glad that I'm well on my way to going back to the girl I was, and the girl I want to be.
You see, Ugly Occurrences are so, so terrifying at first. You'll lie awake at night like I have been, just thinking about it and being so afraid of it. They'll shock you out of your skin, they'll take away your appetite and all the happiness anyone or anything else may have brought to you. But it gets better after a little time and a little reflection. It'll become your Life Changer, and hopefully it leads you back onto the path where you need to be.
Whoever and wherever you are: If you should be needing a Life Changer, I hope it comes for you soon. I hope you manage it right, and I hope it doesn't treat you too harshly.
Don't be afraid, be strong. It'll blow over, and it'll soon guide you home.
thank you.
xx
hey you guys ;) hope this week has been better for you than it has been for me. I hope this post does help you, because it definitely has made me feel better. <3 <3
moving onto a lighter note! I think I'll be blogging new posts every Saturday :) apart from maybe photography or song recommendation posts. So I hope you'll be looking out on every sixth day of the week for something from me to you hehe
thanks guys ::)))))
seeya!
xxxxxxx
signing off,
ashlafiee
moving onto a lighter note! I think I'll be blogging new posts every Saturday :) apart from maybe photography or song recommendation posts. So I hope you'll be looking out on every sixth day of the week for something from me to you hehe
thanks guys ::)))))
seeya!
xxxxxxx
signing off,
ashlafiee
